Broken, Deceived....

We go through this life building relationships, building tight-knit friendships with those we feel we can always rely on, those who will stand beside us, defend us, love and support us then suddenly it all comes to an abrupt halt. How can people go from supportive to shunning in a matter of a short time? Senseless. The only purpose --- personal gain regardless of the hurt it may cause. My heart is very heavy today as though it has been ripped right out of my chest. How can people be so cruel? So evil? So uncaring? So one-sided? We live in an evil world where betrayal runs rampant, disregard for the truth....sure they say the truth will set you free, but for those who "claim" to know the truth their "lie which they think true" will gnaw at them, eat them from the inside out. How people can live with themselves when they destroy another person's life is beyond me. I only know that because we live in a sinful world and Satan has free reign, heartache will no doubt be a part of each and every person's life. No one is exempt from heartache and extreme pain. It's a part of this life....a horrible part of this life!

I trusted so many people and now I have been stabbed in the back....all for THEIR personal gain at the expense of MY destruction. Regardless, I am called to LOVE these people and forgive them...and I will once the rawness of the betrayal settles down....but I am in no way called to LIKE them...and with what has happened, only seems to be logical -- love yes as Christ commands me; like no as I am not called to.

A lot of questions run through my mind now. Bitterness and hurt, sadness and sorrow envelope me to the point of sheer depression...at the bottom of the pit. I know there is HOPE because I believe in the ONE TRUE GOD. I know that what has happened to me is going to take some time to heal. Time to heal for sure....but while I rest in God's comfort for me.