All I am asking for is just one moment. That's it. Just one little moment where maybe time would kindly rewind itself for me. Is that really too much to ask? Sometimes it is so difficult to comprehend how fast time really passes. It truly is fleeting in every definition of the word. When I see my girl now, I can't help but find myself reminiscing and longing for the days of yesteryear. Fifteen years ago when I heard the words it's a girl! and it was at that moment a mommy's love began to grow. How is it possible to love a little human being so much? God is the one who makes it possible. He gave me my precious daughter to love and cherish, and to raise in the way God desires. I am not going to deny that every day has been sheer bliss with my girl, but looking back, the good times really do outweigh the not so good ugly times. Please, just one more moment to cherish the days when dresses such as this:
were merely dress-up fun dresses.
But, now these fancy and frilly dresses mean more than just mommy dressing up her little girl. This little girl is spreading her wings now to fly. But how do I face the nest being empty all too soon? I can only face it with God's strength and guidance. Little girl dresses and pigtails and sparkles are but a memory forever etched in my heart. Singing together little songs like Twinkle Twinkle and Five Little Monkeys Jumping on the Bed have been replaced with (gasp) songs of the boy band, One Direction (and yep, this mom sings along with her in the car---how can I not; it's still memories being made). What melts this mom's heart though is to hear her girl singing songs for her Jesus - Wait for Me, Always, God's Not Dead, etc. Now that is music to my ear.
Time ticks, seconds, minutes, hours, days, weeks, months, and years....and there is no escaping it's forever march forward. 15 years ago, I thought high school was way, way off into the future; but where are we now? Junior year in high school. Can I take a moment and scream? No seriously, I really just want that one moment where time just stops for me. Seeing your little 8-pound baby growing into a beautiful young woman really is an amazing moment. Makes my heart smile. Though I do long for the days gone by, I would never trade those days for the ones I am experiencing now.
My precious Amanda, as I watched you sleep a few nights ago, my heart skipped a beat. You may be growing up, but no matter how old you get, you will forever be my little girl watching every episode of Arthur, wearing pigtails in your hair with matching outfits; my little girl who won my heart from that first newborn cry. It's you, my sweet Amanda, that I wish for that one moment in time, just one moment to snuggle you, kiss you, hug you...my little girl in pigtails and frilly dresses, I love you forever and for always! Never will a moment pass that my love for you doesn't get stronger----even if you are a crazy little monkey.
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